I am not a big movie goer for a number of reasons. Some of those include not having a movie actually worth watching. It seems that all movies these days have to have someone dying, blowing up, or having sex in order to be interesting. While I do believe these things can be done tastefully, most of the time it seems these scenes are in films just for the sake of having them. Reason number two falls under the category of desire. Most of the time, I would rather hang out with friends and have a conversation instead of being entertained in front of some pretty lights on a big screen.
I was sitting at the Butler's apartment and did not have anything to do and started to peruse their DVD collection. Stargate SG-1 was out. Nope, not Pride and Prejudice either. Aha, Garden State. My selection had been made. Everyone had been telling me about how great it was and that I really needed to see it. Not only was I utterly confused by the first ten minutes, I was instantly intrigued. I thought this was a romantic comedy. Hmmm... I am finding this movie more and more interesting as I continue watching. I get to the end of the film and pretty much burst into worshipful tears. Not because I am a wuss, but because the glory of God shone so brightly in this film. For the past couple of weeks, sin has sucked the life out of life. Emotions overwhelmed me as the theme of "If it feels good do it" rang throughout the frames. Their was such a joy to be had in life that I keep on missing.
If I can be transparent for a bit, depression is one of my greatest faults. I struggle to see the happy side of life. I am constantly in a contemplative melancholy mood. When I see people who do not even know Christ getting more joy out of life than I do, it makes me wonder how gracious our God is. If he can bestow common grace among people that don't even know him, how much more grace is available to me being one of his children? Too often I preach grace with my mouth, yet fail to embrace it with my life. I live as though I am still under the law.
Although secular and probably rated R (two things American evangelicalism say I should stay away from), I was greatly encouraged by the common grace that our King bestows upon us. His divine appointment of my seeing this film at that particular day and time makes me even more joyful in how intimately involved he is in the details of my life. It is unbelievable that he uses all things to the glory of his name, even rated R movies that have nothing to do with Jesus.
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